When I was little I loved sitting in the backyard watching our giant cottonwood tree. Like a green giant it would softly sway in the sky. Now that I am older I hardly sit and look at trees anymore. It is hard to sit and be still and not have a list of things that I need to get done going through my head. But yesterday I did just that. I couldn’t remember the last time I just lied outside and enjoyed nature’s company. I grabbed a blanket and a pillow and decided to take an hour to myself while my husband hung out with D (our little guy).
As soon as I got comfortable on my blanket I immediately noticed just how difficult it was for me to stay present in the moment. Even though I practice yoga, my mind became flooded with thoughts. I tried focusing on my breathing to no avail. Then suddenly I noticed our trees. Like really noticed them. In the three years that we have lived here I have never once just sat and enjoyed our trees. But at that moment I took notice.
I watched our own cottonwood trees bend to the wind. I watched as their leaves glistened in the sun while they danced gently on the breeze. I noticed how the clouds looked like little mounds of cotton slowly drifting across the bright powder blue sky. I listened to the symphony of birds chirping and leaves rustling around me. My mind became still as I took notice of these things. My body relaxed and I felt a calm that washed over me. By connecting with my surroundings, with nature, I was able to connect with myself.
Just taking an hour to myself to sit outside and just let myself be was very healing. I awoke today feeling more like myself. I am now sitting outside typing this while D plays in the yard and my dog lounges by a tree, both of them connecting with nature their own way. After all, they need some self-care, too.