In Memoriam of Our Furry Friend

Our dog PyperA few days ago we were devastated by the sudden loss of our pet dog, Pyper. These past few days after her passing were emotionally draining and left us weary. She was a year old when she joined our family and was with us for six years. There was an instant connection between us, and being my husband’s first dog, they had an even more special connection. We learned over the years that there was not a door or a fence that could stop her – in her time she chewed through a bathroom and garage door and was an escape artist when it came to kennels. Besides being a Houdini, she loved running and lounging under a shady tree. Water was her nemesis – she even found going to the bathroom out in the rain irksome.

Nana dog

When D was born, Pyper immediately took to being his Nana. She watched over him and was a giant, four-legged friend to him. When D learned to roll, he would roll straight to her so that he could be next to her. When he learned to walk, he wanted to be the one to hold her leash while out on walks. He loved to give her hugs and exclaimed “Pupper” whenever he saw her.

Nana dogWalking

It still feels unreal that Pyper is actually gone. There is a hole in our family that she once filled. Her death was very sudden, unexpected, and tragic. Sifting through the emotional upheaval of her passing has been challenging. Yesterday I turned to writing to process my emotions. A poem began to take form and a wave of peace washed over me after it was done. The wounds are still fresh and raw, but I feel comforted by the fact that her spirit is free to roam. She is with us in memory and in love.

Me and my dog

I’d like to share the poem here. Perhaps others who are dealing with the loss of a beloved pet can find some solace within the words.

Our Furry Friend

You no longer walk among the living,
But, my furry friend, this is not goodbye.
You run free anywhere and everywhere;
Fences nor doors are standing in your way.

Your wagging tail is the breeze in the leaves,
Your nose is the drops of rain on our cheeks,
Your eyes are the soulful knots on the trees,
And your fur is the grass beneath our feet.

Your bark is the rolling sound of thunder,
Your footprints are the stars across the sky,
Your smile is the radiant crescent moon,
And your embrace is the sun’s golden rays.

So you see, my friend, this is not goodbye.
You have become one with the Universe;
Free from the constraints of the living world.
You are always around and within us,
And will forever be our furry friend.


Choose An Ideal Day

I recently received an e-newsletter asking me to think about what my ideal day would look like and what I could change to make my day as close to that ideal as possible.  Being unrealistic, I first thought about waking up in Spain and spending the day drinking wine, eating free tapas, taking a siesta, and watching the sunset on a beach in Grenada.  Or maybe I would wake up back in Thailand, riding our bicycles down to the small hut of a restaurant on the beach, enjoying vibrant authentic Thai dishes while gazing off towards the ocean.  How lovely that all sounds.  Then I pull my head back down from the clouds and start imagining a more realistic ideal day.

Surprisingly, I have woken up before D and feel rested.  I roll out my yoga mat and feel any residual grogginess melt away with each asana.  After peeking into D’s room and finding him still asleep, I take my time enjoying a long warm shower.  D finally wakes up once I am dressed and ready to take on the day.

We meet up with our mommy friends and their boys.  I savor some coffee, laughs, and stimulating conversations. It has decided to be sunny out today so we are able to lounge outside while the boys play.  D is wiped after our playdate so we head home for a nap. He waits to fall asleep until we are inside the house, avoiding the dreaded 10 minute rejuvenating car seat nap.

I decide to take a power nap and then take some quiet time to myself to journal, read, or watch one of my TV shows.  After a good long nap, D wakes up in a fantastic mood and I heat up a dinner that I have already prepared the day before.

His dad arrives home on time, maybe even early, from work with enough energy to play with D before bedtime.  D goes to sleep on time without waking back up (hallelujah).  My husband and I are able to cuddle on the couch, just the two of us, while we watch one of our shows (right now that would be either Orphan Black or MasterChef Australia).  I’m actually tired when it is time to go to bed and I fall asleep within moments of my head hitting the pillow.

Thinking about it, there isn’t a lot I could change to make my daily routine more like my ideal day.  I could set an alarm to wake up before D so I could do yoga and shower in peace, but I really like my sleep.  We do meet once a week with our mommy friends for a playdate since it is a sanity saver.  There are certain things out of my control, like the weather and D’s sleep.  Most importantly, I get to spend my days with my favorite little guy, and there’s not a day that goes by that I take that for granted.

It is gratifying to know that I am already doing what I can to make my day ideal.  There will always be housework and other responsibilities, but that’s life.  As long as I make the most of my day and focus on what matters most to me, it shall be very close to ideal.  Of course, I won’t complain if a beach, some wine, and free tapas were to sneak their way in.

What can you change in your life to achieve your ideal day?

On a bike ride along Mai Khao Beach in Thailand.

On a bike ride along Mai Khao Beach in Thailand